Isang taon na pala..

Naalala ko lang naman. Semana santa kasi. One year ago ulet, semana santa din, haha! kasi last year, magkasama tayo. Ngayon? HINDI NA! Last year, nagsisimula palang tayo ng mga panahong ito. Actually, ngayong araw na 'to tayo NAGING. Ang galing 'no? Noon, mahal mo pa 'ko. Ngayon, hindi mo na 'ko kilala.

Sabado de Gloria na mamaya.

Akalain mo yun?

Nung nakaraang araw, magkatext tayo. Tinanong ko kung saan kayo maliligo. At ang sabi mo, syempre sa dati. HINDI MO NA BA NAALALA NA KASAMA DIN AKO SA DATING TINUTUKOY MO?

Ganon na lang ba kadali sa'yong MAKALIMUTAN ako?

Last black saturday...

Pinilit-pilit mo pa akong pumunta sa inyo kasi sabi mo hindi makukumpleto ang araw mo pag wala ako sa tabi mo. gabi na nung nagkita tayo nun syempre with friends.

Lasing ka pa nga nun diba?

Tapos halos ayaw kitang tabihan kasi nga nagsisimula palang tayo kaya medyo may ilangan pa.

Pero ikaw 'yung tipo ng lalaking nakakapagpaamo ng tupa.

Grabeng happiness last black saturday.

You made me feel loved.
You comforted me.
You made me the happiest girlfriend on Earth.

Maya-maya lang, sabado gloria na ulet.

Sana maging masaya ka.

Uh, napakahibang ko naman talaga oh, masaya ka naman na palang talaga.

Pasensya ka na, nagbabakasakali lang naman na malungkot ka na wala na 'ko sa'yo. hehe :-)

Sorry, naalala lang kasi ulit kita e.

Sige. Bye.

Sana nga!

Babalik yan kung mahal ka talaga niyan. Baka naguluhan lang yan kaibigan. Di perpekto ang pag-iisip ng tao kaya minsan ito ay nakakapagdesisyon ng kung ano ano sa isip niya.

(Source: matabangutak)

Yun bang bigla na lang nasaktan ka sa di mo inaasahang dahilan. Tapos hindi mo alam kung ano ba ang dapat mong maramdaman. Pwede mong itago sa lahat ng tao na hindi ka nasasaktan. Pero hindi mo kayang itago sa sarili mo na bigla na lang nadurog ang puso mo. Hindi mo maintindihan kung bakit, pero masakit. At tanging pagtulog na lang ang paraan para makalimutan mo na nalungkot ka.

ee kasi ang sakit sakit na.

Naranasan nyo na ba ung feeling na feeling mo wala kang kakampi? Na gusto mo na lang kitilin ang sarili mong buhay sa sobrang bigat ng nararamdaman mo. Halos lahat na ng kamalasan na sayo na, halos lahat ng gawa mo sa tingin nila eh MALI. Iniisip mo na wala ka namang ginagawang masama para magalit sila sayo o kamuhian ka ng ganun ganun na lang. Pero kahit anong pang-unawa di mo sila maintindihan. Sa totoo lang, pagod na pagod na 'ko. Gustong-gusto ko ng maglayas. Ang kaso alam ko babalik at babalik naman ako sa mga kapatid ko kasi sila na lang ang pamilyang meron ako. AT alam ko kung maglalayas man ako lalo lang nila akong kagagalitan. Ansakit no? Ang gusto ko lang naman magkaron ng KALAYAAN. hayaan sana nila  akong gawin kung anong gusto ko dahil wala naman akong gagawing masama sa sarili ko. Kaso, alam mo kung anong masakit? Yun bang ayaw niang pagkatiwalaan ka. Ayaw ka nilang bigyan ng KALAYAAN. Ayaw ka nilang maging lubos na MASAYA. Gusto ko na lang umiyak ng umiyak kasi  hirap na hirap na 'ko lalo pa't vwala naman na akong magulan para pagsumbungan ng mga hinanakit ko sa buhay. Kaya nga kahit papano, nagpapasalamat pa rin ako sa mga KAIBIGAN ko na laging anjan para pasayahin ako. Kahit alam ko may kanya-kanya rin silang problema. Siguro ganito talaga ang buhay na sinasabi nila. Mahirap. Magulo. Madaya.

Forget it.

I’m telling you now so then you’ll start doing it. It doesn’t happen overnight or after one deep conversation or after a heavy dose of chocolates and sweets. All of it will not matter in the future, not unless you will acknowledge everything that happened and use it to the best of your advantage.
Forget the hurt. It will eat you up inside. It will cause you to hate. Hate is never beautiful. It will tear you. And before you know it, you’ll start hating people that you’re not supposed to hate. You’ll lose people that you weren’t meant to lose. You’ll make greater mistakes.Forget the fact that you’ve been stupid before. Forget it, for now. And acknowledge that fact in the future, maybe. Don’t bang your head against the wall. Or, go ahead and bang it and feel even more stupid afterwards. We make mistakes. And we learn from it. Don’t ever look for an easy way out because there isn’t any.And of course, let’s face it. You won’t be able to forget everything. You’ll feel every bit of pain. Trust time, your self will eventually keep everything in a box and put it in a corner. It is the painful irony of life, the more you try to forget, the more you remember.(Source: hsafkjlhasf)

You know what honestly?

All these time, I keep on pretending that I’m okay. All these time, I try to hide the sad feelings, the painful emotions, and all the unexplained feelings of hurt inside my heart. I keep on making myself believe that I can be happy alone, that I can move on with my life now. But the truth is, I’m pretty messed up. I used to think that life after a broken love story will be okay. That it would be better if we’re off without each other because I learned to live my life alone before him. But it’s not easy letting go of all those memories, those happy moments you thought would last forever. It’s not easy forgetting all those sweet messages, the material things, everything. It’s not easy for me to throw it all away just like that. And I wonder, how come it became so easy for him? How come everything we had was just a game for him? I wonder if he also went through hell crying all night, thinking about me. I wonder if he still wants me back, or if ever there’s a part of him still longing for me. But you know what, I can’t stop caring. I can’t stop loving. And all these time, it’s still him. It’s still him whom this heart wants to be with. It’s still him that I want in my life.

source: SHYiee

Happy-Supposed-to-be-First-Anniversary!

                                                                                                                         March 29, 2013

1 year ago when I committed myself to you. It was the happiest moment in my life, to be owned by someone I thought I'll never had to be with. Thank you.

Uhm, so how's life? How are you? Are you happy?

I don't know what to say really.. Or maybe whatever I say, you won't care either.

Kahit naman kasi pilitin ko ang sarili kong magdrama, wala rin e.
Wala kang pakialam. Ni hindi mo na nga ko kilala.
Tila ba wala man lang tayong pinagdaanan.

Nasasaktan pa rin ako.. Isipin ko na WALA NA TAYO. NA WALA KA NA SA AKIN. NA WALA NA AKO SA'YO.

Hindi ka man lang ba naawa sa akin? Papansin na nga ako sa'yo palagi.

Kelan ka ba babalik sa akin?

May plano ka pa bang bumalik?

Ayokong sumuko kahit pagod na 'ko.

AYOKO! DAHIL MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA!

T_______________T

so who's who?

before i sleep, i just want to share this story. haha! actually di ko alam kung ngayon ko na ba dapat syang sabihin or some other day nalang pero since nasimulan ko na, let me end this.. chareng!


so, after break up namin ng x ko, nangako ako na hindi na muna ko magpapaligaw sa ngayon.
there are those guys who try their best to prove na gusto talaga nila ako and willing to wait until handa na  uli akong umibig..

meron na 'kong triny idate haha, masaya naman ung company ng guy kaso I really can't imagine myself committing with others.

until I met this guy..

una syang nagmessage sa'kin sa facebook. asking for my number. haha! ee sa malandi ang lola nyo, pakipot na muna 'ko until i decided to give na lang din my number sayang ee. haha.

i did reply to his messages without looking at his profile.. without looking clearly at his pictures.

tas naisip ko, oo nga no. sino ba to?

when i loooked at his profile, his face looked familiar.

sya nga ung lalaking lagi kong nakakasalubong sa skul.

haha! to be honest, aamnin ko sana sa mga friends ko na may crush ako sa lalaking un kaso natatakot naman ako baka tawanan nila ako at sasabihing iba na naman ang crush ko! haha! malandi nga kase.. haha!

tapos un halos everyday ko na syang katext until.. ahhhh! basta.


to be continued. pahahabain ko muna ung kwento namin!!

haha! goodnight! it's time to sleep. `12:35 AM na :)

Hi. Have you ever been heartbroken?

Have you ever felt like you could never love again because of the pain in your heart? It’s killing you inside, right? It’s not giving you any relief. Because until this day you are still thinking and wishing that someday, somehow, the two of you will cross each other’s paths again and that time, everything will be alright. But hey, don’t you know that if you keep on thinking about that person who broke your heart, the painful feeling won’t subside? It will just grow, and it will just make you miss him more. Do you want that? Do you want to keep on missing someone who doesn’t give a damn about you anymore? Let your heart heal. Release all those painful feelings through crying and writing. It will help a lot. do not stress yourself so much on hoping that you’ll get back together. Because you know what? You’ll never move on if that’s what you keep on doing. You won’t forget. Start to forgive yourself and start to forgive that person for breaking your heart. And everything is going to be alright.

No. It doesn’t work that way.

You can’t just walk back into my life & expect things to go back how they used to be. After all the pain you caused me, all the shit you put me through, all the things you’ve said. How do you expect me to let you back in? It’s funny how you wanna come back into my life like you never left. Nahh. Fuck that. &Fuck you. Once you leave, You leave. No coming back in once you’re gone. 

(Source: yourstrulypalita)

I am a hopeless romantic.Yes I admit it. I am a sentimental dreamer who dreams about the perfect love story of falling in love, being in love, and loving so much that it begins to hurt. I believe in true love, soul-mates, fairy-tales, and an ending with the words “happily ever after”. I love every little romantic aspects of being in a relationship. I not only like the idea of someone holding me, but also the idea of having someone else to hold. In my mind, love is just that simple. Two individuals who are willing to give up everything and anything to make the other person happy. No complications, a hopeless romantic’s mind is set in perfection. Some people might think this is a foolish way of thinking about love, that there are bound to be obstacles. But don’t get me wrong, I know those obstacles exist. I just like to be optimistic about the most beautiful thing in the world, which we all know, is love.

sana di na lang..

"SANA PALA HINDI NA LANG KITA NAKILALA PARA HINDI KA NA NAGING MALUNGKOT." - REINDY

masaket man tong message nyang to para sakin, pero sana nga hindi ko na lang sya talaga nakilala. hindi ko alam kung bakit pero sana nga hindi na lang... sana dina lang talaga...

I am SHE~

dalaga na si nene ;)

Dear you..

I wish I could hug you again, baby. I wish I could hold your hands, look into your eyes, kiss your lips, embrace you tight. I want you back. I know you might be happier now, without me. But at least I want to let you know how much I wanted you to be near me. I want you here beside me. I want to feel the warmth of your embrace, I want to smell your sweet scent, I want to taste your lips, I want you. I want you back. Please be mine again.

Who would have thought that I could be strong enough to face this pain?

Even me, I never thought that I would be in such kind of pain. This is the thing that I have never imagined that I would feel so much. Falling in love is really fun. Yes, it has all the happy moments, but in the end, you will have to face every single inch of pain. You will be hurt, you will feel alone. But the truth is, thinking about these will only break you. Remember, there are two of you in that relationship. It’s not always you who is hurt. Sometimes, you also have to put yourself in your partner’s situation. But when everything else fails, and you’ve done everything to fight for that love, that’s the only time to give up. Then, you have to be strong to face the next morning waking up without that person anymore, waking up realizing that he doesn’t love you anymore, and that you are alone. Yet, one day you will realize that you can be happy again, that you can smile again. And you will make yourself proud of the fact that you went through hell for such a long time and you survived.

Will I ever love again?

I could say that at some point in my life, I would love again. After all the tormented feelings brought by my former lover, love is still going to cross the path I’m taking, and is going to be a part of my life again.

I believe that in this world where nothing is permanent, the only thing constant is change. People change, though memories don’t. Memories are simple things that reminds you how stupid or clever you may be.

If ever me and that so-called love crossed paths again and cupid has mistakenly struck my heart for the nth time, I would gladly accept and cherish it. I will take care of it so much that I would give the full attention to the magical feeling and make it last forever.

I will not let anyone tear that apart, to break it, same as how fate made me believe that my former love is the guy i’ll be with for the rest of my life, then break it afterwards.

Yes, I will love again. It takes time to heal wounds. But then, nothing is impossible. And yes, i will love again.

(Source: shyieesolove)

When I’m in love, I write about that person..

My attention is focused on how he has become a huge part of my life. I describe how happy I am to be having someone like him. I pen down all the mushy feelings I feel for him, how he really inspire me on a day-to-day basis, how his affection has gotten into my nerves and makes me go crazy day by day. I write about that person, how I wanted t have a future with him, how i wanted our life to be for the few years to come. When I’m in love, I write about that person, and let all my literary pieces be about him.

But then when I fall out of love, I still write about that person. How hurtful it was to be losing him, and how sorrowful that day has become when our love has ended. I can describe how painful the pain is; like it’s simply stabbing myself to death, but in a minute I realize that scratching the scar is hard while letting it bleed once more; like I’m digging my very own grave and burying myself alive.

When I fall in love with you, I’ll surely write about you. How you make me happy, how I love you, and how special you are. But don’t try to hurt me. I’d still write about you. But this time, I can kill you with these words left unspoken.

(Source: shyieesolove)