You know what honestly?

All these time, I keep on pretending that I’m okay. All these time, I try to hide the sad feelings, the painful emotions, and all the unexplained feelings of hurt inside my heart. I keep on making myself believe that I can be happy alone, that I can move on with my life now. But the truth is, I’m pretty messed up. I used to think that life after a broken love story will be okay. That it would be better if we’re off without each other because I learned to live my life alone before him. But it’s not easy letting go of all those memories, those happy moments you thought would last forever. It’s not easy forgetting all those sweet messages, the material things, everything. It’s not easy for me to throw it all away just like that. And I wonder, how come it became so easy for him? How come everything we had was just a game for him? I wonder if he also went through hell crying all night, thinking about me. I wonder if he still wants me back, or if ever there’s a part of him still longing for me. But you know what, I can’t stop caring. I can’t stop loving. And all these time, it’s still him. It’s still him whom this heart wants to be with. It’s still him that I want in my life.

source: SHYiee