Martes, Mayo 14, 2013

maybe i didn’t need him as much as i thought i did.


When it was over, I cried like the rain, just so the world could feel my pain. I really did feel lost without him. But now that he is gone, I’m not gonna look back. 

And when I realized I were probably better off without him was the best ting I ever did. He really was my everything. Maybe he knows he’s lost his biggest fan. I remember all the time I wished I never met him. Because sometimes I still think it. So now I’m still left searching for that one boy to prove me wrong and show myself They’re not all the same. Maybe I still think about him. But what difference would it make?? Even though I miss those days when he would just phone me for no reason, send me those texts that I found so hard to delete. Put a smile on my face when no one else could. And even if it was him who made me cry, he seemed to be the only one who could make me stop. 

I still think about what went so wrong . Even though its too late. When he said forever I was stupid enough to believe him. So I’m left thinking when he said he loved me. Did he ever really mean it?? Thats when I remember nothing lasts forever. You remember how it all started even though you try to forget. It’s so hard when I see him. Sometimes I have to remind myself we’re not together anymore. 

Why does someting perfect always have to come to an end? I was just another mistake. its a shame I never learn though. maybe next time I will get my fairytale ending. Just not this time. Just remember everything happens for a reason. There’s so many things I could say. But i know you’d just walk away. I miss your smile. but I miss mine the most. No matter how much I didn’t believe it, I guess I know now we weren’t meant to be. 

“Giving up doesn’t always mean you’re weak. Sometimes it means you’re strong enough to let go.”

Stuck between weather. I really want him back, or just want the feeling of being loved back?So I’m left wondering if I’ll ever get the second chance. Leacing you would never ahve even crossed my mind. Not even once. Guess you can’t say the same. You promised me so many things, but you forgot one thing. To keep them! 

So many people ask what I saw in you. but to be honest, i don’t even know myself. but whatever it is, I still see it. And so here’s the problem, i care too much and you couldn’t careless. I hope one day you look back on this day you realize what you had, But by then, I doubt I’ll still be waiting. So here’s to another dead end. 

If only you still felt the same.